Here I am banging my head
screwing this F@*#ing brain I have
I feel I'm in hell with smoky flames around
burning all memories that was stored with the restless sound.
Why did you have to go?
What the F@*# did you do?
Are you somewhere high and taking someone to buy
all the jokes that you spread all around?
Why don't you burn down my head, murder my brain?
It's the only cure I know to stop me from refrain.
You're such a pain, playing your silly games
smashing the heart that once was innocent
and now I'm no more a sweet Juliet that once was quiet.
I hate looking at your disgusting face
burning my eyes in another place
My mind had been restless but still you're so wreckless
Now what can you give to cure my brain, brainless?!
I just need a place where I can stand all alone,
somewhere I feel I belong.
to a place of which your face is unseen
Escape from the burning flames you left me.
So you think this is fantasia,
where all I want to get is amnesia?
Cut the life that you messed with,
run away from the memories you left me.
My heart is bleeding, my mind is burning, you sent me down suffering,
and you think I'm sacrificing?
Now all I wish for you to create me is amnesia
so don't speak to me and tell me that this place is fantasia!
I feel so tired for my mind had cried
I am so weak, so don't come to me and creep
don't be a bug creeping inside my brain, cropping up slowly like a crazy crane!
Because tomorrow when the sun sets so high,
I'll be blind, I'll be deaf, I'll be dumb, I'll be nobody and I won't even know "me"!
But I'll pray for you - so goodbye now.
But remember I'll wish for you!
I'll be looking down on you and see your soul burning in hell!
(quite a selfish love i used to have, i guess that's what i felt before. people feel this from time to time when they get frustrated. it's okay to feel that way. it will eventually fade away. an experience i'll never forget, but it had taught me a lesson somehow...learn to forgive...
like the saying goes, "set him free, if he comes back, then he truly loves you, when he doesn't, he was probably not meant for you"...you'll find a better one, you'll see...you just deserve someone better...just think that he's not worth your love at all! move on and show the world you're stronger!)
