I cant believe my friendz

I sit here as I stare at the screen
I can’t believe what you have written
So many things about them and me
I told you I would be there no matter what
I never once lied to you
I never once left you
Yet when I got mad instead of talking it through
You were the one who left me
I only got mad because you lied
I forgave and forgot

Her life isn't perfect and whose could be in this lonely world we live in
She tried so hard, searching for some friends to understand
When she finally found some worth spending some time with
Everyone deserted her except for a few you tried
but still was the one that left
She tried hard to explain but she knew you cared too much
She didnt want to hurt you but in the end I guess she did
She told you it was her mom, she never once told u a lie
In the end it was her mom and the one you would have guessed last
It was you….no one wanted to tell you but I have to tell you
She cut because of the stress of not being free
She wanted to leave this world and fly like an angel up high
She never wanted to hurt you and cried many times when she did
Though many people look at her today and ask how and why
Hiding the scars with long sleeve shirts and sweaters
Finally not afraid anymore to tell the truth

I never want to hurt you and I never tried to
When the group fell apart I was still there waiting
I never left anyone I never fled like you did
When our group broke I told you I would be your best friend forever and I meant it
Now I’m not trying to make you mad, upset or even sad
I’m just trying to tell you the truth
With courage no one else seemed to have

I want to say I’m sorry that I couldn’t tell this to your face
I thought it would be better this way
Please just let go of the past and don’t blame people for it
No one can understand another persons past unless they too lived it
So please just forgive and forget like I had to do many times
I love you like a sister and I want to be best friends forever
I just didn’t want you keep trying to fix things that couldn't be fixed