Namez any1?**

This Feeling I thought had gone away for good
I thought I could smile forever more
But it's back
And it's Stronger than ever before
They tell me not to turn to my poetry
They tell me not to read your depressing work
It'll make me phsycotic
But am I not already That way
I see they way you look at me
Like I'm some kind of freak
You stare at me
I see your eyes run over my body
You grow scared as you see my arms
My beautiful scars mortify you
Why are you scared
They've saved me from death so many times
Everytime you tell me I'm worthless
They stop my pain
But I don't turn to that anymore
No I'm no longer a cutter
I promised not too
And it's a promise I'm trying hard to keep
I feel so alone
I know I am not
But my heart feels so empty
I smile though once again it's fake
For a while they were real
Depression, it keeps consuming me
Never letting go
Fooling me into believing me I'm better
Then stricking when I least expect
I don't want this anymore
I can't take it
I'm helpless and alone
But I'll smile
I'll smile just for you