My tears

I stand in the shower,

Letting the water drip over my skin

And think about what they told me

About how they said they love me

And that I should stop for them

so I told them no

And now, they are sending me away

Yo the crazy farm.

Where everything will be o.k.

And these voices will leave me

And everything will be o.k

I turn the water off

And realize that there are tears streaming down my face.

I didn't realize it until now.

And now that I know

I begin to realize what I have done to myself.

I have mutilated and abused my once smooth skin.

I have become ugly

Both mentally and physically.

And it hurts to finally realize it,

But its true.

I am going to stop.

My skin will be smooth once more.

But never again will it be scarless.

I don't regret doing it.

but I do regret not stopping until now.

I'm going to stop.

But I will change.

I'm going to be more sad

and more depressed as I was.

so I no longer wish to talk with you.

For the voices want me to stop.

But when I am o.k again

Then I will

Then it will be safe.

I love you....

Good-bye for now.

Nancy