Dear daddy

You just didn't understand me
i don't think you ever will
you wouldn't let me be myself
thats why i am so ill

ill with a terrible sickness
and there seams to be no cure
i wish i was younger
so i could be happy and pure

what I'm about to say you wont like
but remember it is true
all my life i wanted to say
daddy i hate you

you gave me this terrible cold
you put things in my head
daddy why did you tell me
that mommy wouldn't care if i was dead?

if i knew back then that mommy cared
i wouldn't have this razor blade kiss
i would not have flirted with suicide
daddy without you my life is bliss

even though you are gone
i still have silly thoughts in my head
i still have my razor blade kiss
and i still wish i was dead

this terrible cold in classed as a disease
it puts bad things in your mind
it gives you the silliest ideas
of how to cure what builds up inside

daddy i hope your happy
with what you have done
just done expect to see me again
what you did cant be undone

daddy why did you do this?
why did you tell me those silly things?
i hate having to feel this way
daddy i wanted to be an angel with wings

its not my choice i promise
this cold became my obsession
its also little monster
some call depression

i call it fear
even thought not many have it
nothing makes it go away
i just cant beat it

daddy its all your fault
i find pain so amusing
and its also your fault
that my life is so confusing

daddy look what you tuned me into
i little child who others see a failing sight
daddy because of you
i will never see the good in life

drowning in my past
daddy was it hard leaving me this cold
daddy because of you
its mt hand no one wants to hold

people think I'm weird
because i choose to be different
i like to stand out in the crowd
which way was my life meant?

daddy please don't write back
your words i wish not to hear
nor do i ever want to see you
i hope i made my self clear