Mirror

My life has been covered by the darkest cloud
And I can’t find my way out of it
I try to say things that will set me free
But I’ll always be stuck here in my loneliness
Nothing can pull from this darkness
All I can do is look at myself and cry out in discus
I am so undone that I can’t recognize the girl in the mirror
I just want to cry and wish I could see myself
I want to know what I’ve become
I’m tired of guessing I just want to be me
I’m tired of pretending
My life can’t take it anymore
I don’t want to talk about it
I just want to change
But if I changed now I will be lying again
I don’t want to be what it’s in me
I just want to be like everyone else
But the creator in me won’t let go
I can’t just walk in the street and blend in
I have to stand out
I have to have the finger pointed at me
I’m tired of holding my last breathe
I just want to let go and finally live my life
But I know I’ll be rejected if I let me out
I’ll live in this darkness for as long as it will let me
I will linger in the crowd hating what I’m becoming
Soon I won’t even be recognized by the ones that love me
I’ll create another creator that will be just like everyone else
And the one that harbors in me
Will continue to try and scratch its way out
But I’ll sit here in the darkness
Watching the figure in the mirror live
While I look out from the inside.