I feel so much agony, So much pain burning me inside, and I don’t know why I feel this aching, but I know it all comes back to you...and me and the question of us ???? A 1000 knives could stab me in the heart, and it still wouldn’t cause as much pain as I’m feeling. When I sleep I’m at peace... till my nightmare comes. When I wake... the nightmare just continues. Why do I feel so motionless and devoted to you? I LOVE YOU...when I am with you... you have the key to my heart, you’ve locked my heart with yours. Sometimes I wonder where to key is... I picture it rusting away, more and more each day as it lies untouched and unnoticed. Roses loose petals and they die so why does a rose represent love?...And my love for you...Why can’t there ever be a forever? I feel... MEH...Meh is such a perfect word to describe how I’m feeling because meh is not a word and there is no word or way of describing this feeling.
Those with so much only crave for more. Like a Dracula needs blood to survive...the benefit off another... holding the scissors on my wrist... should I stab or cut? Run the scissors up my arm, direct them at my throat, the screams of my aching are unheard... drained out by the stereo... the music of my hope the only thing that has ever stopped me from doing the unthinkable... and again it succeeds... my clenched fist around the killer becomes a hand again and the suicide falls to the ground, my wrists bleeding but only scratched, as I start breathing heavily because I can scream no longer, not because I’ve lost my voice... that was lost long ago... but because I can’t scream through the remainder of my tears. But as tonight proceeds my tears subside, lost in another moment will the poison in his eyes keep rescuing me? But for how much longer? When his gone the poison eats me alive...the blood of my pain for love rests on my wrists, as I wash it away I wish my pain would go with it...
