Dont leave me

Don't leave me
you used to say.
but i didn't listen
and went away.

i could no longer live with the things i have done,
so i decided to go,
and when it was done......
i went away.

i took the knife and held it close,
it was like family,
only..........

it killed me and what kind of family is that?
i hated myself and always will.
so i am gone,
and you are alone............

i would never have done this
if i saw through the hate.