Playing my music

The only time I'm ever free
Is when I play my music
I lose myself in all the notes
It helps me get right through it

I drift in and out of feeling
When sometimes I am numb
I pick up my clarinet
And feel the music come

But now my pain is too much
My longing to be free
I want to play my music
It no longer helps me

I've sank so deep in darkness
I felt it's calming touch
I cannot get away now
To feeble ropes I clutch