Her Sister's Words

~It's a bit long, but I'd really appreciate it if you took the time to read it~

Deep and hollow
A whole for the tomb
Tears accompanied
With this unwanted doom

She definitely wanted it
This death was not a mistake
She couldn't stand life
She just wanted a long break

Everything was hectic
It was all too much for her
She couldn't take it
Things were bad as they were

Life, she couldn't handle
She cried each and every night
Why was she so miserable
Why wasn't anything right?

She was living a lie
Her parents didn't care
She had few friends
And they were never there

There wasn't anything good about her
She couldn't match up to the other girls
She always smiled it off
But in her head all the tears whirled

Happiness was never an option
It just didn't come to her
Life really wasn't on her side
It's just the way things were

She really didn't mind at first
Always looking at what she had
Imagining how things could be so much worse
She never did get mad

Until one point she realized
That things just got worse and worse
That every bit of good she had
Was traveling another course

She didn't think it would last
This was just part of life
Things would get better soon
It's just temporary strife

Soon she noticed a part that still haunts
She was so very wrong
Her life was never good at all
It was horrible all along

She had many reasons to die
And one to live
She had a little sister
And to her sister she gave all she could give

She thought if she was going to live bad
She would make her sister's life good
She would do anything possible
Everything she could

She saw light in her sister
A path to happiness
A reason to forget
All the unwanted mess

But one day her reason failed
Gave her so much pain
Words stinged to much
They were engraved to her brain

"I hate you so much
You're an embarrassment to me
You're ugly and stupid
God, why can't you see?

You don't have a life
My friends all laugh at you
There's nothing good at all
And believe me, its all true

Why don't you understand
You're not helping in anyway
You're intruding in my life
And i don't want you to stay!"

Words her little sister spoke
Hurt her more than anything
A child's resentment
Brought more pain than it should bring

But her sister was all she had
To life there was nothing more
All light had disappeared
She had shut the last door

A few days later
The silence grew
She took a gun
About to do what she longed to do

She went to her sister's bedroom
Alone right now she cried
With her sister's words
She wished she died

She took a pen and paper
And started her note
With her reasoning
She quickly wrote

Her sister found her dead
Tears streamed down her cheek
Why would her sister do this
She didn't have words to speak

She found the note in her hand
Everything she read
More tears rolled down
From the reason why she was dead

In the note was every word
Her sister spoke to her last
Why she decided life was not worth it
Why she put herself in the past...

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