In My Chair

In my chair, leaning back
Thinking of all the things I lack

Friends to hang with at any time
People who’d rescue me at the drop of a dime
Companions who are with me to the end
A comrade, a colleague and partner, a God-send

In my chair, leaning back
Thinking of all the things I lack

An intimate relationship with a trusted friend
Someone that I can never offend
Secrets purposely, lovingly shared
To someone who doubtlessly, tenderly cared

In my chair leaning back
Thinking of all the things I lack
I sit with arms folded and legs crossed
Musing on all the things I lost

Someone who would be with me no matter how I fared
Someone to smile at me, no matter how I was snared
Family to stay with me by my side
A friend, a sister, who would never lie

I sit with my arms folded and legs crossed
Musing on all the things I lost

Trust in humanity, a hope to abide
An innocent soul that would never die
Happy days with no worry
A dog that is completely furry

I sit with my arms folded and legs crossed
Musing on all the things I lost

Apathy infiltrates my being
Ambivalence clouds my seeing
I wish to be dead some days
My religious faith was just a phase

I sit with my arms folded and legs crossed
Musing on all the things I lost
In my chair leaning back
Thinking of all the things I lack
In the psychiatric ward
For strangling my dog with a long wire cord