My mind

Why do they do it?
mess with my head
hurt me, abuse me
not physical but mentally instead

every single day
there's a fight in my head
confusion is stirred
and my head begins it's trend

boys are my enemies
girls are my friends
boys have betrayed me
so I'll betray them

lies, lost, hurt, and confused
those awful thoughts
run through my head
making me hurt more
and i wish i was dead

the past, my future
all flash by my eyes
when all that i dreamed of
has only told me lies

all that i wanted
all i lived for
all of my heart
shot by a dart

why do they do it?
why do i care?
why do i hide?
when all isn't fare

pain, shame
lost, confused
hurting and cringing
what do i do?

there is my life
there is my heart
there was my hope
there was my dreams

I've lost it all
i simply gave up
decided it was pointless
but that wasn't enough

they stripped me to nothing
they stripped my pride
they betrayed all i lived for
and all that i would hide

knowing it's not good
knowing i need help
knowing there's nothing for me
knowing i really don't care

i decided to just get over it
i decided to just leave
decided i don't need anyone
especially if their only going to hurt me