What if........

Can't hold these tears back although i try and try , nothing seems to go my way, just wanna run, get away.

I sit here in my bed fighting these tears, that so hard i try to hold back but they just seem to come my way.

I sit her looking at these slits that have now become scars, that will never go away,
yet i sit here wondering
what if i went deeper just alittle,
I wouldn't be sitting here today feeling this way.

These scars that where once burning with blood i want to feel again just to feel the blood flow through my vains just so i can feel alive.

I want to feel the blood leave my wrist just so i know i'm here. Just so i know I exist.........