I miss me

I used to be so happy
now i miss my smile
people ask me why i like to keep to myself
i tell them i have no option..
i don't have nobody but me
all i have is me
all i wanna do is sleep
and never wake
all i wanna hear is silence
all i wanna touch is air
all i wanna see is blood
my own blood....
which heals me
wish i had someone to stop me
from doing the crime i do every moment
there used to be laughter all around
now there are screams and accusations around me
i used to be covered in smiles
now I'm covered in tears and blood
they're my only hope now
my only support
they help me keep myself alive
even though I'm dieing inside
they reveal my feelings
even though my heart's breaking deep down
i miss the smiles
i miss having someone to count on
i miss having friends who cared
i miss having parents who were there
i miss having a sister who said she loved me
all this happiness was traded
i got beatings and bruises in return
people spitting in my face
kicking me in my face
I'm slipping further by the moment
i miss the old me
i miss me