Falling

I'm sleeping in a dream of nightmares why do I fall ,cry,cut in my dreams are they trying to tell me I should cut my wrists and jump off a bridge with a rope around my neck to make everyone cry so they would know what they did to me. what drew me to do this to myself was it the rumors, the lies, or just not being what everyone wanted me to be. Well sorry for i am what i am and I will keep falling from everything because I will soon land on knifes that will pierce my skin and the blood will flow, a stream will form, falling down won't be so bad then after I am getting pierced with the knifes on which was left of my body