Goodbye, My Friend

As I lay awake at night
Tossing and turning in bed
Covers tangled around my body
My eyes so sore and red

I stare into the darkness
The ache inside me so strong
The urge to do something
That deep inside I know is wrong

I pull out my black box
Filled with implements of sin
Pills, knives, a razorblade
Desire burns so fierce within

With shaking hands I clench the knife
Run a finger along the blade
Kiss the metal so smooth
Hope one day the scars will fade

I stare at it there
Still laying in my hands
They tremble with fear
I doubt you could understand

Its time to say goodbye
To my only friend
Someone I thought would be a part of me
Until my bitter end

And though I still long
For the bitter taste of metal upon my skin
To see the blood rise
And wash away my hate and sin

I know that I don't need you
I can do this on my own
I can cope, I can survive
For I don't have to do this alone

Ive found someone else
That can help me through
Without causing scars or pain
So I must say goodbye to you

This is all will fade in time
So goodbye, my dear friend
Now that I have him in my life
I'll never need you again