Suicidal Note

Dear whoever is reading this
You are the one
To read this letter
And tell everyone what I have done

I was sitting here for a while
Contemplating if it was right
Then something sent me a vibe
That tonight was my night

The perfect scene
As the rain fall harder and lightning strikes
Laying in my bed
On this dark night

I could not figure out why not
No one gave me a reason to stay
They all just made it worse
Day after day

How everyone in my life
Went around acting so perfect
Nothing was ever
Or will ever be worth it

And the one thing that was
Left me a long time ago
So please she wont care
So do not let her know

I would be surprised
To know she even cried about my death
And if I could I would tell her I love her
With my last breath

And the metal just shining
With each strike of lightning that lights my black room
And I can just imagine
The black and grey flowers in front of my tomb

My finger slowly rubs
The tip of the bullet
And I just smile at the feeling
Of having it hit

The feeling of being lifted
From this life of pain and fear
Knowing that then
My head will be clear

Of all the thoughts
Of her with someone new
But please if you see her passing by
Do not forget to tell her I said I love you

Do not forget to tell my mom
The time I spent with her I cherished
And thank you for always
Being the best parent

Do not forget to tell my dad
I love him and I know he tried his best
I just could not be perfect
I did not pass the test

Do not forget to tell my brother
I hope he makes it in the army
And I will be watching over him
And just be all he can be

Do not forget to tell my grandma
That I will see grandpa in heaven
And I will tell him for her
That she misses him more than anything

Do not forget to tell Laura
I love her with all my heart
But please do not tell her
That she is the reason I had to part

Tell her I will watch over her
And pick her up in time of need
Tell her that I miss her more than anything
And I did not want to leave

Tell her she was my only one
I did not want anyone else
I guess the only thing I really needed
Was someone to give me some help

But help is too late
Tonight is the night
And as I slide in this bullet
I am going to give my life

I place my finger on the trigger
And hesitantly pull
I can not stop myself it is to late
Why did I act like such a fool

The note was found that morning
Next to the bed
Beside the bullet
That when through his head

The bullet had a name carved in
It read “Laura” the girl he was in love with
And now we know the last thing that went through his mind
Before he laid himself to rest