Goodbye

Life won’t stop leading me down,
So many wrong turns
And I can’t take it anymore,
For it does nothing but burn
Death is looking good right now,
Seems like a pretty good thought,
Cause I don’t want to deal with life
But death cannot simply be brought
As easy as it seems,
It is harder than appears
For there are a few that care,
For them the pain would be hard to bear

No… they will get by without me,
This is where I will cross the line
But something feels wrong,
Though I cannot define
Do I really want to die?
Sometimes I don’t even know
But now it seems like a great idea,
As my life reaches it’s all time low
So I find a quiet place,
Pull out the knife I keep on me,
For just one second I think about death,
Think about how it will be

I make the cuts and feel the pain,
As I lay here and die,
This was what I wanted right?
So why is it I cry?
Guess it’s the thought of all I’ll miss,
All the things that will go by
And I won’t be there,
Because it will be here that I die
I can hear the sirens in the distance,
As my vision goes blurred
It is in that very second,
That a thought occurred

I never said goodbye,
To the few who loved me
As this runs through my head
My lover shows, forever scared she will be,
She held me as I lay on the ground,
As I lay there and die
She said she loved me more than anything
Tears welled as she began to cry

I managed a few final words,
Though through the blood,
They were somewhat slurred:
“I’m sorry that you had to be here,
Sorry you had to see
You must move on,
Forget about it all, forget about me
I love you so much,
I’m so sorry this is how it had to be…
Don’t ever die on me, Goodbye…”

My body goes numb,
I feel the darkness close in
I begin to feel weird,
And my world starts to spin
But I did not die sad
For there was something serene,
I got to see your face before I passed
And you were on the scene
This is the end,
I take my final breath
She holds me tight,
As I am engulfed by death
“Goodbye…”

Copyright © 2005 Nikk Settell