All of my life
I've sat in the passenger's side
looking out the window
just enjoying the ride
but that day came
when i just thought
"why can't i take control?"
and "i won't just sit back and watch!"
i needed to drive
take myself through life
but i wish I'd stopped there
if only I'd thought twice
counting calories
exercising everyday
watching my weight
as well as what i had to say
life was great
people seemed to like me more
they'd comment on my appearance
but never asked what i was dieting for
weeks turned into months
pounds were just more weight
i took it a step further
than simply watching what i ate
more water for me
along with one less meal
ounces off my waist
more lies to conceal
a diet wasn't enough
food completely had to go
maybe some rice here and there
nobody would know
pounds and pounds
color from my skin
my mind overruled reality
and i held it all in
after six months
everyone started to see
that my diet turned into
a life that was food free
i was told i needed help
so i went to the shrink
they said i had a psychological disorder
i didn't know what to think
but now i do....
it wasn't about food and weight
it was all about an image and control
no one had noticed at first
cause i was only about ten years old
