This nightmare, will it ever end (revisited)

I feel empty...
like everything I have ever dreamed,
everything I have ever done,
has been erased...

my brain has gone blank,
as i stare into space,
people screaming at me,
but i cant understand them
like they are speaking another language.

wait, where did they go?
everyone is gone, but I can still hear them
now they are saying, "just hold on"
it will all be OK.
I don't want to hold on, it will never be OK!
I want to let go,
the pain, it hurts,
it wont go away

What happened?
The Voices are gone,
I'm slowly fading away,
I cant feel anything,
all i see is black... like its night.

I wake up... my mother is yelling at me.
My dad is too, my sister is laughing,
none of my friends care enough to be there,
they don't care what has happened to me.

The doctor tells my mom that he thinks i attempted suicide,
he says I’m lucky to be alive,
but really am I?
It’s just going to go back to how it was before...

Why couldn't this be over...
This life that I live,
if you could even call it that,
this nightmare, will never end...