I Cried Alone

I give up my world to become yours
And when you push me away I fall flat on my face and I can't pick myself up
Because my lifeless arms have bled too much for you.

All I wanted was to see you smile at me
When you meant it.
When you could honestly look at me
And know that I was all you'd ever need in life.

But too many times I looked at you and hoped it was coming
Thought it was coming...
Then you looked away into the night.
My tears were never noticed for though I cried loud
I cried alone.

But I sobbed and sobbed for you.
For nights on end I cried into my pillow
Wishing for this pain inside my heart to cease.
Each morning I would awake and face the reality of this world
Where you would sit beside me and hold my hand
And never feel a thing.
Slowly but surely I gave into the ache in my heart and became nothing
Just a lifeless figure holding your hand
And no longing pleading for your heart.

I've become empty and numb
Not caring anymore if you really feel the words you say.
"I love you" rings false to these ears which heard so many lies.
The feelings I have for you still force strong emotions upon me
But I push them aside like you did to them also.

I sit in a corner like a lost child
Until you pull me along to wherever your life may lead you.
I'll follow you like a lost puppy who you kicked too many times
But relys on you just the same.

Because I do.

No matter how hard I've cried
How deep I've cut
And how much I've needed you to see all that...

I will never walk away from the one I love beyond reason.