Hiding

Even in a crowd of people
I’m all alone and lost
Every shoulder turned to me
Their stares and icy frost

In this place I do not fit
I know I’ll not belong
But like now I always hope
That it won’t last for long

To escape the constant chaos
I hide in solitude
Waiting here off to the side
Here’s my place I do conclude

All alone and silent
These are the ways I am
Never speaking unless spoken
Not like I give a damn

I guess is for the better
That I place myself away
Avoid the conscious loosing crowd
This appears as how I’ll stay

One thing that can save me
From this chaos and it all
Is one I cannot have
One pushing me to fall

I know she does not know my heart
But that does not make it less
It burns like salt on a wound
But the pain I won’t confess

The pain itself is inside
No way for me to escape
Only once the burn is done
The heat enough to cremate

In truth I am not hiding
From the people in this place
She’s the one I cannot look at
The one I cannot face

I’m afraid that if I see her
I’ll do what can’t be done
Make my rejection complete
With no place for me to run

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