If you let go...

I understand this is really quite long but it needed to be written, its a bit all over the place so i apologize but any comments will be really really appreciated, thank you.

Staring around this classroom,
With my blurry tear-filled eyes,
No one sees me screaming,
No one hears my cries,

Have you ever stopped to wonder?
Just how the world would look,
Through someone else’s eyes,
As they sat and shook,

Sitting here and shaking,
I’m going to explain,
Just how this world looks to me,
Through these eyes so strange,

I look at all these people,
But feel so deeply alone,
I wish to be safe in comfort,
I wish to be at home,

I feel the many presences,
People talking in my ear,
But the words that they say to me,
I somehow don’t really hear,

My mind drifts off so dreary,
It’s almost blank; it’s hard to think,
Tears are waiting in my eyes,
I refuse to cry them, I blink,

I long for someone to hold me,
And I silently cry and ask,
For someone to take my tears,
An almost impossible task,

For a moment I feel some warmth,
As someone loving edges near,
She comes to give me company,
When I can see nothing but fear,

But she can’t stay forever,
And leaves me, with hesitation,
She wishes to come and rescue me,
To give me unending salvation,

But again I feel so lonely,
Tears stream silently from my eyes,
I hide my face from view,
For no one ever hears my cries,

Hear my prayers and answer,
Or seek an end to this confusion,
See my face looking happy,
Don’t see it’s an illusion,

In my face there is no beauty,
I am nowhere near perfection,
I try to hide these feelings,
But it brings me no protection,

Someone holds me tightly,
And beneath them I am smothered,
They are trying to release,
The tears in which I am covered,

But I don’t want their suffocation,
I need some room to breathe,
It makes me get so angry,
Until I sit and seethe,

Hear my cries, don’t answer,
See my tears, don’t cry,
Look at me sitting on my own,
And don’t even wonder why,

Forget the angry voices,
And words uttered from my lips,
Leave me here to crumble,
Watch my blood as it drips,

I need the love and comfort,
But don’t want to be suppressed,
Under your blanket of protection,
I just get more stressed,

I’ll just sit here waiting,
For my angel to reappear,
I sit here under my hood,
And try to disappear,

Hold me tight dear angel,
Please never let me go,
Cause I’d die without my rock,
I might fall if you let go…

*All comments and votes greatly appreciated as always.*