Not A Normal Day (Part 1,this is NOT a poem,its a story)

I woke up, and once again I was wishing and hoping I was dead.But then I realized,I still haven't left this place,so called earth.This morning wasn't like no other because this one ,I was really mad and depressed. The night before I had found out that my boyfriend was cheating on me.Before I went to school I took some pills.I didn't know how many I took, I even didn't know what they were,but I didn't care. When I got to school my friends asked me if I was OK? They said that I was acting strange like I had drunk or took something,but when they asked if I did,but I just lied and said no. Then I saw my ex boyfriend with the other girl he was cheating on me with. It made me so mad.I went into the bathroom and got in my purse.I got my razor blade out and cutted my wrist,hoping that I would only die! I closed my eyes real tight and cutted myself again.This time I thought I was dead but as I opened my eyes I was still in that old bathroom stall.I heard the bell ring and with blood dripping down my arm I tried to hurry up.I cleaned the blood off my arm then put down my sleeve and went to class.As I got there everyone else had already sat down.The teacher asked me why I was late but I didn't say anything then he told me to take a seat.I sat down by my friend Nathan.He liked me at the time.As the teacher was talking Nathan asked me why was there blood on my shirt,probably knowing what it was from already.I didn't know what to say and before I even could say anything Nathan started saying that he already knew and I didn't need to lie.Then he asked why do you do this to yourself? do you want to die? I couldn't answer because it was the truth,and I didn't want to lie but once again thats what happened.I lied to him.It's like someone else was speaking for me.The bell rung and class was over.
..to be continued