Going Backward

I’m lying here in bed, his words running through my head. What do you do when your world is crumbling in front of you? I would pick it up but I’m too weak to stand, He gave me strength but he let go of my hand. There’s so many tears that all day I fight, they beat me down and come out at night. I use to have sunshine everywhere I walked and got butterflies every time we talked. Once he left the sunshine was blocked out by rain and the butterflies eventually died from too much pain. My dreams I had were all crushed and my wishes were quickly hushed. I realized how stupid I had been and went back to my world when I was 10. Before all the shooting stars and fairy dust, angel kisses and demon lust. When my world was dark, dreary and cold and living in pain was getting old. I shouldn’t fall in love again cause everything I love leaves in the end.