Will these scars ever fade
Reminders of memories
The memories they hold
The memores of pain and hate
They haunt my dreams
And flood my mind
I never thought I'd make it through
Thought they would never become memories
Now as I look back over the past year
I sit in amazement
I never knew what I endured
For I was so numb
I don't remember that much pain
But there it is before me
Blood stained pages
Carpet too
I was so much stronger than I thought
I still see no other way
Looking I wouldn't change a thing
For without self harm I'd be dead
Looking back I did it all right
You may not think that it's true
If you came and sat with me
If you could see what i do
Maybe you would understand
And as I sit here looking back tears fill my eyes
I don't know her
I'm scared
Look at the girl I was
I realise then
I never want to go back
