Rememberance

Everyday I remember our friendship
And how much you cared
You were my brother
You were my friend
We would've been together till the end

I knew nothing of your plans
You never talked about what was bothering you

I remember that February morning
Waking up to a phone call
From your mom
Begging me to come over
She needed to speak to me

I walked over
Knowing nothing of what happened
I walked in and saw her sitting there crying
Saying to me
Dustin is dead
He committed suicide

It hit me slowly
I felt something bad was happening
But couldn't figure what it was
Not until those three words hit me

Slowly I sunk into depression
Wishing you were still here
To hold me
To make things OK again

Your mom gave me the note you wrote to me
You said you loved me and wished you didn't have to leave
But you had no other way out

All I can do now
Is sit here and cry
Reading those words
Keep me in your heart forever
I'll always be with you

I need you here with me
You were the person holding me back from the edge

In and out of hospitals I go
Scars and blood staining my skin
This hell called life isn't ending
It's just begun

Why'd you leave me
Why'd you abandon me
I needed you
You needed me
This shouldn't have happened to us
This wasn't meant to be I guess

To let you know
No matter what
I miss you day after day
And those words still haunt my thoughts

I won't soon forget you
Nor will I banish you from my mind
But you will live on through me
Because I will always
Hold you in my heart
Forever and for
Always

*This is for my friend Dustin who died February 14th 2005. RIP Dustin "Jammer" 1989-2005*