Not Going To Give In

by HOLLYWOODxBANGBANG   Feb 28, 2005


This poem kind of fit into like 6 categories so i just chose this one....

Not going to give into that tempting blade,
i do not want to end the life that i have made,
i do not want to make any more scars upon myself,
i just want to get away from the pain that i once felt.

Not going to give in to the tears begging to drip out today,
there has got to be another way,
i do not want to be remembered as the gurl who gave in to what people wanted her to,
i will just try my hardest to make it through.

Not going to give in to the devil's whispers in my ears,
i will get rid of my greatest fears,
i want to live my life to the fullest and experience it all,
i no longer want to take the fall.

Not going to give in to the darkness enveloping around my body,
i do not care what they think or say, i do not need nobody,
i can make it on my own if i really try,
i do no need to pray and wish to die.

Not going to give in to the sorrows hanging over me,
i just need these people to let me be,
they just do not realize what their words do,
but with a person going through depression these feelings of contemplating suicide are nothing new.

Not going to give into the begging thoughts of running to hide,
i am just going to hold my head up high, no matter my pride,
kick up my heels and enjoy the life that i have,
not going to take any more physical and mental abuse from my mom and dad.

Not going to give in to losing my innocence at such a young age,
no matter how much he pleads and begs,
if he does not like the fact that i am not like the others that do,
then he can go and date them and we will be through.

Not going to give in to doing all those drugs,
i am not going to be like the rest of those thugs,
i have been there before but never will i return,
from all of my mistakes i will learn.

Not going to give in to anything anymore,
i am going to live my life the way i want...i will not go knocking on heavens door.
if you don't like it then f u c k off and leave me alone,
i am no longer going to be a little pebble in the rippling stream of life, i am a stone.

© Jenna Elphick
February 28, 2005

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  • 19 years ago

    by Dark Savior

    i am no longer going to be a little pebble in the rippling stream of life, i am a stone.

    Interesting choice of words to put a words in the great chinese philosopher, i can't remember his name well i can, but i just can't spell it.

    I know that it was a nice way to put it. Sometimes we have to make mistakes...if you learn nothing from them, then that was the mistake...if you learn then you have never learned from it at all...eddison was once asked after trying 1001 times trying to invent the lightbulb "you have made 1001 mistakes...why do you keep doing it?" Eddison "Now i know a 1001 ways not to go" or something along those lines.

    Trust me....drugs and alchol are a bad combo..i am glad to see that you are trying to quit. good for you.

    Anyways i always talk too much in these things.

    Five/Five

    P.S. Thanks for your comment again, i enjoy each one i get. Keep those comments coming, i am currently working on a poem that i think is going to be an AWESOME poem. check it out probably tomorrow when i am done with it. Professional writer...hmmm give some thought to it, your probably still young, your mistakes can be corrected.

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