Not Again

I'm not mad
how can i be
U have been through so much today
and i have stood up for you
but sometimes i feel like nothing
i feel like just another one left to rot
i feel like the middle of nothing
u see i liked him first
u knew that
then i hear u guys had sex
that hurt and i know u knew that
but what i still wonder is why u did it
why did u have to go for him
i know it was a long time ago
and i know i shouldn't care
but i do
how can i not
and i know u say u hate him but do u really
or are u just saying that for my sake
because if u are i don't know how much more i can take
now there is this guy who i knew first like last time
who asked me out first like last time
but then meet you like last time
so where do i go from here stop and wait
or trust you like i did last time
or just shove it in the back of my mind
i trust u i do
but i don't wanna get hurt again
cause i know like him i may not of told you but i do
I'm not mad
just plz don't let this happen again
i was torn apart
deeper than Ive ever been
so if u want have him before i fall deeper OK
so i wont have to get hurt
I love you but I'm afraid