Breaking the Skin

I give up too easy
I give in too quick
If I listened to my thoughts
then maybe it'd click
I'm no okay
not sure I ever will be
I'll be gone forever
if they ever see
That I did it again
it hurts so much
All I want right now
is to feel the touch
Of a cold blade
breaking the skin
Feel a sigh of relief
as the blades digs in