To hate

I hate my self as I’m human,
I hate my self as I’m selfish,
I hate the egoism that grows in me,
I hate my thoughts that won’t leave me,
I hate my present but I cherish
My love for this amazing woman.

I can’t predict but I hate my future,
I can’t comprehend reality and I hate my faith,
I can’t choose,
I dive in truth and lose,
My life refers to drama for all sake,
So I remain to bare the torture.

Then again how can I not hate?
My life, my thoughts, my past, my faith?