To my bestfriend

To my bestfriend,,

A lot of people tried to ask me
why i look so stupid
its not because of the way i am
but of how i had been.

A lot of people had claimed
im one insane
should have been in some place
should have been in another space.

now let me tell you once and for all
about my past and me
i could have told you long ago
but you seems not to care.

im not as stupid as some claim
i just got my own way
theres just something in me
that nobody understand.

im not even insane
i just love to think it my way
the way i am, please dont blame
my creator just made me this way.

im not the one you think i am
i dont have any reason to live
but i still try to
though no one understand.

i dont laugh a lot but,
when you see me once
please do be grateful
cause thats one rare thing i do.

i dont look at peoples eyes
its one evil thing to do
cause i may see what lies inside
and they may see what i hide.

i keep my silent all the time
cause i got nothing to say
just dont let me get ablazed
cause i might overflow.

its not that im unlucky
i know im not one
its just that i have been through
some pain you would never want to have.

i know despite my pain, im lucky
i have a home, a place to go
i have my cloths, my dress to wear
and i am still alive.

not that i want to complain
you can see i try to hide my pain
choke my tears til the last drop
and dont think that i cant make it.

i will try to be bold
to face my very own hold
to live a life not lies
i will i will for sure.

but,,
have patience til my last
cause my time is just so near.
be with me til my last
cause i still believe that you would,still.

dedicated to my bestfriend
you know what i mean .my last.