No Longer On Standby

As she attempts
to make another cut
I standby and watch

I think to myself
Why am I letting her do this

I then think
its her life
I have told her
i don't approve
and don't want her to do it

if it makes her happy
so be it

I am horrible
I don't deserve
to care for her

She is the most important thing
in my life
I cant believe I let her
let her do this

what is wrong with me
have I fed up

she blames it on herself
But I blame it on life
life for being existent

I blame her pain
all on life

she doesn't agree
she thinks its all her

its not her
its not life
its people
people who make
her feel like shit
and make her hate life
more and more
every
single
fing
day

I am trying
trying to correct this
I am giving you love
but I let in
I said it was OK
OK that you made that next cut

its not OK
I love you
and I let you do it
I knew what you were doing
you said "Be Right Back"
and I was like
there she goes making another cut

I feel horrible
Amanda
I am sorry
I will start to take action
and help you
I am no longer on standby.

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