The Anger

Its only a matter of time
before I crack
go insane
see red

Attempt to do the worst
Curse to hell
Show the real anger
show how I can be
show why I am the way I am

I will scare you
you will be in fright
you wont want to talk to me
you will be to afraid ill crack
again

I understand pain
and fright
its hell
it makes you feel things you didn't want to
you cant ignore this
I understand that too
but for the sake of people
I must
I have to ignore it all

If I don't ignore
I will be in trouble
I will be looked at
heads will turn
I wont be looked at
as a person

I am about to show
what I am made of
what I can do
I must hold the feeling in
to explode
to show

Believe my
you don't want to see me
when I have gone crazy
when I have been filled with anger and hate

Most of this
anger and hate
cant forget depression
has caused from love
love of you

I can't stand to see
you in pain
your dad
your brother
they both make me
want to show
them what I can do

I promise
I will keep it in
I wont show
how I really feel

But I wont stop thinking
about what they do to you
I will continue to make more
anger and I swear
one day
just one fine and glorious day
I will crack
and the world will feel sorry

Maybe I am crazy
maybe I have thought I am to powerful
but i cant help what I think
and feel
I have the intent
of what I must do

I want to show your dad
and brother
what I want to do

No I wont
I will keep it in
I will find another way
Violence isn't the way

I know why your dad does what he does
he was raised that way
he is f.cked up in the head
who isn't

your dad will be cured
with a small talk
a perspective will be put in goodness

your brother
he seems like a nice guy
he is
but
he did one thing
that makes me angry

I didn't see why
so i cant help it
no one should do what he did
as to your dad
I hate your dad even more
at least your brother protects you
but that one small thing
Makes me want to hate him

I will leave things along
forget the anger and hide it all
today is an example of why I shouldn't
show the anger
I made you sad
I made you cry because I told you
how I felt

So sorry
I am
I can't help
but think what I must

How am I to just sit back
watch you be injured
and not do anything

seeing you hurt
brings out the anger
you and I didn't want this

when you are healed
I will be too
I must try and do something
But when I do
I hurt you in the processes

I am stuck
with no where to go
but to die
or something of that nature

Amanda
once again
I am really sorry
and I promise
I wont show the anger

* I wrote this with thought of my g/fs brother and dad at thought, they make me so mad, and I hate to just standby and watch them hurt her.. So I wrote this peom to show how I feel *

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