Almost Gone

One door closes
another opens
the case is true here

I lost Annie
I gained a greater thing
Took time to heal
took time forgive

I now have amanda
she's great
I love her

Amanda you make me feel
so great
I care for you more
than anyone else

Apparently this is bad
I try and care
try to help
end up causing you pain
bringing back memories
showing you I know it all

I should have never shown you
what I know
shouldn't have mentioned
how I felt about your brother and father

I told you they must die
that no one deserves how they treat you

I know the introduction wasn't great
I wasn't going to say anything
I was going to let you know
Not going to tell you what i knew

Then you asked why I was mad
I warned you
that you didn't want to know
you agreed after
you thought you wanted to know

I told you
I want to kill you dad
make your brother suffer for living

You got upset
upset that I read the poems
you told me not to

Amanda I read them because
you don't tell me
what you feel
its because I care

Maybe I shouldn't care
it seems she doesn't want me to care
but how ever it seems
I will continue to care
until the day she lets me go

I hope to not see that day
I fear it comes soon
so soon as tomorrow

I called you several times today
no one answered
I was going crazy

I had to hear your voice
know you were alright
tell you I loved you
hear the same from you

I asked you
Do I make you happy
being your b/f
you told me you had to go

I then told you that I loved you
and you replied saying
later

Amanda
I am sorry
I did it because
I care

I want to feel the anger
the more anger
the more i care
the more I love you

I want to help
I really do
I want to hold you
show you
its alright
I will hold you safe
keep you from your dad

You now don't trust me
Im on the floor
crying
wishing
I had never told you
never had read what I did

But also in the instance
wait no
I am sad
I want you to know how much
I care for you

Please don't leave
I don't want to die again
Cry for hours

Your better than annie
I will suffer longer

Amanda
I'm sorry once more
please see why I did it
please forgive me and tell me
I
Love
you
:'(

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