Every time i walk into our room
the chaos of 39 students
the wonder of one you
to hear you say my name in the morning
makes me feel so much
my strong heart beats against
my sweaty chest
my soul is pushing my body
yearning to run to you and hug you
but i can not
every time i hear the loud bounce of a ball
i know it is you playing
i want to get hit by it
just in case you might run to me
and hold my hand
touch my cheek
see my swollen eye
that looks upon you so often
i want to tell you how i feel
when i sleep on your lap
under a mahogany tree
your jacket shielding me
the scent of you
and i close my eyes
and let my imagination
run wild
and i can pretend that you love me
if you only knew
how much emotion
you bring to me
how hard i must contain myself
when it is you
when your head is cradled on my lap
when it is your face that i shield from the sun
when it is your hand that i gently touch
to ask a question
if you only knew
of the kisses i secretly gave to you
while you'd be asleep
of the dreams i keep about you
of the prayers i have recited
of the little piece of paper in my wallet
that came from you
maybe
just maybe
i can stop pretending that you love me back
* hi! please comment it would mean so MUCH to me cause this is true to life. things i actually am doing :) * thanks!
