Bleeding Tears

I try to hide my excruciating pain
But it continues to waterfall and flood out
Through my sad, eyes bleeding tears
And my curdling shouts

The blood flies right down my arm so fast
Without any cares to be noticed at all
Just leave me alone as rock and I sit in the dark
Against my rock hard, white padded wall

I take my beloved razor blade
My one and only very best friend
The only thing that I know will be there
Until I finally reach my very end

I take the old, overused blade
And pierce myself as hard as I can
I begin to bleed slowly but surely
The blade trembling a little in my hand

I sit alone with my favorite shadows
With no one to really bother me
I take my lovely blade once again
And press as hard as it can possibly

I can't help but bleed and cry; moan and isolate
These emotions are attacking me, I'm crying countless tears
I think about my unbelievable, spontaneous wishes
That are haunted by my inner most, deadly fears

I looked towards your way today
I figured you were too cold to be real
I seem to cause myself physical harm
Just to see if I can still feel

**Dedicated to: Nicholas J. Retzlaff.**