How come..

I got my wish
you came back to me
so how come i feel this way
how can this be

how come its different
between me and you
and how come life still sucks
and all that i do

I'm still in so much pain
and i don't know that reason why
you're supposed to make things better
and stop my urge to cry

how come i still feel alone
though I've got you by my side
and even though i love you so much
i want to run away and hide

i hate the way i look
oh what an ugly fat site
so badly do i wish to just let go
and lose this painful fight

mother tells me I'm too skinny
kyle tells me i look great
then how come i see all this fat
and the look of my face i hate

my friends are starting to catch on
about the new scars that I've made
i wish people would ignore me more
forget me so i can fade

how come I'm resented
because of the clothes that i war
and how come people say they're worried
but yet they donut even care

school life couldn't be better
yet my social life couldn't be worse
i wonder who'd show at my funeral
who'd care if they saw me in a hurse

i am very insecure
but i know that i matter to you
i don't think that you love me
but i very much love you

how come you don't reassure me
when i need it the most
at times i feel like I'm invisible
like I'm a transparent ghost

how come life is always
so confusing and so hard
theres so much hurt in this world
carefully, yourself you must guard

i have many questions that need answering
yet no one is ever there
no one seems to notice me
finding help is very rare

when you hear that Ive died
you'll become so very numb
wondering if it was your fault
asking yourself how come