Drowning in pain

Drowning in pain,
smothered by shame,
wishing i wouldn't feel this way.
always hoping for a better day,

i am not strong,
did i do anything wrong,
i don't deserve this from you,
I'm helpless and don't know what to do,

i wasn't ready for this,
this is something I've never wished,
i always feared this day,
when it would end up this way,

drowning in pain,
smothered by shame,
wishing i wouldn't feel this way,
always hoping for a better day,

i handed you my heart,
thinking you wouldn't tear it apart,
but i got it back in pieces,
here i stand trying to put them back,

you left me standing here,
faced with all my fears,
crying in my own arms,
thinking you were the perfect charm,

drowning in pain,
smothered by shame,
wishing i wouldn't feel this way,
always hoping for a better day...