Hide myself

Upset
sad
tired
angry
about to cry
all of the emotions I feel

I feel almost as if
no one wants me
I have become a disappointment
to my parents
even to myself

I am just getting to the point
where I must find a way out
I desire to die
every night
like usual

But haven't got the guts
to take that knife
and kill myself

I'm to afraid of what might not be
or even not living
but who isn't?

I am told to kill myself
make everyone happy
just do myself a favor

I promise you all
I want to do it
I have every intent
but I'm afraid

I want to cry
I want someone to help me
but no one is there
I am alone in the dark
never to carry a flash light

I have to help myself
I don't know what to do
Whether to live
or die

People will say
Kyle please live
but no
they lie
just to hide the truth
and not to have guilt

I wish when I goto bed
to die
I wish for a lot of things
things that will make me happy

Such as a girl friend
someone to love
and to hold
tell everything to
but they just end up making it worse

I am just getting so sick of life
with all this doubt that I'm getting
with no sign of stopping

people tell me
how much of a failure I am
but then say
I'm so amazing for the stuff I do
and the world will need me

well guess what
two things
make up your mind
and second
your not getting crap out of
because of this way you treat me

I'm sorry
I hate myself
I have disappointed so many people
and hurt so many too

I will just leave you all alone
not as questions
but hide in the dark
and never come out

Happy now?

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