Paranoid

Afraid to go outside
To talk on the phone
Clawed my eyes to blindness
To finally be alone

My eyes would have betrayed me
Though in my control
Too much for them to see
Wouldnt've kept my secrets

I know of everyone's hate
How they see only my imperfection
I could never be that great
I cannot handle their rejection

I cannot trust my friends
My family... my eyes
Cannot believe their kind words
They are too likely lies

Now I can no longer see
Cannot see their disgust
They mean so much to me
But I cannot begin to trust