Eulogy

by Jacki   Mar 3, 2005


Let me tell you about my grandmother.
June 6, was the day she was brought into
this world; a beautiful princess her parents
named Elizabeth.
And they must have known that the name
Elizabeth means to understand others
A sensitive, creative, and idealistic person.
I think her name couldn’t have fit
her more perfect.

Some of you might recall a tall voluptuous woman
with a smile of gold.
Maybe that picture got distorted recently
of an elderly twilight sleeping beauty.
Her eyes sunk in and her hair not permed.
Did her aggression make you stray and
wonder from your heart?
Or did it make you work as a team
and come together like family should?
But let me tell you something now of my
grandmothers heart.

She was raised in a time of famine, poverty and war.
But my grandmother survived, strong willed
by gods nature.
He gave her many obstacles to endure through her
life, but she took them and strived made everything
seem better.
She married a man Fredrick David Hoyer, and
5 children they had.
Her first little girl didn’t make it, god said it wasn’t
her time.
But later blessed her with 4 other wonderful children
I’m proud to call my aunts, uncles and my mother.

This is where my story comes in, the person I remember
the person I wish you could have seen from my eyes.
I was her frog face, my memories will begin.
She told me stories over hot-coco at Bumble-Bees.
Every Thursday was our day out,
Every Thursday was my dream.
But her stories didn’t end over hot-coco those days
she continued to tell me of her life, her sadness,
and the happiness that followed.

The first story she told me I can never forget,
and I’m sure none of you will either.
She told me how she had 6 brothers but one had passed.
Up the hill she went but god took her
Jimmy away.
Her eyes seemed sad and swelled with tears
but she continued on.
She was passing to me her sadness she kept in.
It was ok to cry she always told me
and now I understand why.

In between the stories and the time we
spent on the beach at her camp I was just
a young girl who looked up to and adorned someone
special.
Not a day went by that I didn’t want to be near.
In school I would sit and a headache would appear.
There in the nurses office I then sat.
My grandmother on her way, and my headache
seemed to have faded.
It was all just a lie to be next to the one I loved.
My grandmother, my world, my inspiration
I couldn’t stand to be apart from her.

At night at home I would wake up in tears
crying and crying nightmares cursed me.
My grandmother was gone, which met to me
I would be alone without her smile, without
her grandmother great cooking.
Without her loving touch.
I felt lost and alone but told nobody my pain
my secret nightmares and the reason I shed my
tears late in the night.
For I knew god would take her hand as he
had already taken my grandfather.
Death seemed uneasy, Death was my nightmare.

Thinking back now of all the time I wasted shedding
salty water upon my blushed cheeks when I could have
been dreaming of all the days I had already spent with her
and the days I had to look foward to. I let my nightmare
get in the way of a beautiful dream.

I haven’t told you even a pinch of our stories for some of
them I want to keep close to my heart.
Something left from my grandmother to me.
I will not part with them, I will never forget.
I will only move on with the memories and
understanding of all the things she taught me.
Now that my nightmare is here I realize it’s a blessing
of a wonderful dream.

Grandma I give you away to the ones up in your heaven.
One hand for Jimmy and one hand for grandpa.
He will be holding Jacki, you all will finally be reunited.
They were there to lead you to your peaceful and perfect
new place.
Someplace new you can now call home.
But before I say my one last I’ll miss you, tell grandpa
hello and give him my kiss.
And thank you for my precious gift.
Inside my belly lay a baby full of life.
For if it's a girl your name will again arise; but if its a boy I hope it will
have your wonderful, a perfect
child no matter what gender.
And so in conclusion I want you to remember the cycle of life continues with my grandmothers death she blessed me with a child.
Grandma you never cease to amaze me
even in your last weeks you still gave me something special.
You gave me something to remember
you by because between you and I
I think you knew all my headaches were a lie.

So now I must say to all of you here this is the woman, my grandmother I want you all to remember.
Now close your eyes and think of her smile
remember her voice and those precious I love you’s she has told us all.

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  • 19 years ago

    by Amit

    ~ nice write
    ~ take care, 5! always believe in love ~amit