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The smile I always wear at school
dont fit my pain inside
the smile I painted in my lips
dont show the pain I hide.

the wound of the past
I had not yet forget
the memories that I had
I had darkly concealed.

I can no longer understand
the pain that raged inside
and more over my sickness
slowly kills me down so vile.

Im damn so overwhelmed
with the pain and hurt inside
no matter what reason
it found no room for it to subside.

despite the pain of my illness
the pain of my years;
the anger that I feel
has not yet yield it schemes.

dressing up as someone
I never seems to know
the way of how I end up
with the physical looks I show.

the depression that took over
ruined my entire mind
and when I had the amnesia
I thought my life's just all so right.

It was all a year ago
when that sickness rob my mem'ries
when everything had vanished
and even forgot who my bestfriend is.
(sorry rach bout that..)

Now another illness
run through my veins
the sickness that most fear
cause it got no cure nor can be healed.

now back to the pain thats still inside
and my anger that havent yet raged
I wonder till when I can hide it
or when I can keep it down .

but what can someone like me
do a thing thats never right?
and how I call myself a Christian
yet hatred thrives in my vein.

Im one girl so pale with pain
but my painted smile hide it well
Im only one little girl
who's no longer normal in health.

So I sat here waiting
till it rains with fire
I'll sat here waiting
till my real smile come back..