My Faith

Once upon a time
I had everything
Faith and hope were mine

And the sky so blue
Mountains moved
When I was with you

I was a happy child
My tears only for grazes
Oh how I smiled

I took the safety for granted
Not knowing seeds of agony
Were already being planted …

And I woke to find an empty air
Something took the light away
Suddenly, the warmth wasn't there

And I searched every hill
Every valley and river in my mind
But the waters were so still

I curled up against what had been
A light that shone and shone
Turned to darkness, it wasn’t seen

Torment crippled my soul
As disaster struck me
I craved God to make me whole

But He was gone; though I was calling
Through my bright red screams
Trying to climb, but forever falling

I entered my own private hell
Through caution to the wind
I gave in to Misery’s spell

I no longer cared to live
I looked upon my broken life
And wished to have it over with

My questions seemed to go unheard
Though in those dark nights
I screamed every last word

I never expected to regain
The faith I had long ago
I was consumed by my pain

To warped to look further on
I told myself to believe
That salvation was long gone

And then as strange as it did depart
It crept back inside, and I prayed
And God entered into my heart

I didn’t know what I had done
To have Him back with me
To feel like I was finally whole in one

But now I see that when I was pained
It was the process to open my eyes
So to appreciate the bliss when it was regained.

© Copyright Sharon Ardern 2005