Mom

I am sorry it had to come to this,
That you had to see this awful site,
The site of laying in a pool of my blood.
The deep cuts on my wrists.
I could not take the pain Mom.
School was just too much,
To much stress on me.
My friends just kept stabbing me in the back.
I did not have any privacy anymore.
There is always someone home or in my room.
Someone digging thru my things.
When I did have time it was,
To get away from my sister,
You know the one you let move back in,
With her whole family.
The one that is ruining part of my life.
It was suppose to be my time to spend with you and dad
Dad, yea always getting in fights with him.
I know I’m not his favorite.
Maybe he did not want me at all.
He does not do for me like he did for the others.
He’s always drinking and fussing at me.
Why did you have to do that?
Did you know how much that hurt Dad?
How many times I just wanted to run away.
Well now I am thru with that.
See that’s another reason why I did this Mom.
Dad drove me to it.
He was the one that said I would be the reason for ya’ll divorcing.
See why I was so down at times when ya’ll would fight?
Mom I thought we were close.
We had so much in common,
I had a blast just staying at home to be with you.
Until the day Holly moved in.
Then it was like you did not want me around
Like you did not love me at all,
All you cared about was Holly and her family.
Why is that, why do you have a favorite.
You say you want her to move out and all that.
But yet you don’t act like it.
Can’t you see what she was doing to me?
Well I guess now Devon will have a room to stay in.
Since I am no longer there.
You and dad will not have to worry about the mistake of the family anymore.
See she is gone now.
In heaven where people will love her,
Where there is no pain what so ever.
Where she does not have to worry about anything.
I am sorry that you have to clean up my mess.
I did not mean for it to go this way.
I just needed to get away and I did not know how.
But now I am away.
I am so sorry mom I love you so much.
Tell all my friends now they don’t have to worry about me,
Because I am in a better place.
Tell my boyfriend Erik,
I am sorry I know he did not want it to come to this,
But I just could not take the pain anymore.
Tell him I love him always and forever.
Tell Lindsey and Tiffany I love them so much.
Not to worry about me because I have granny and grandpa watching over me.
So don’t cry any tears or anything like that.
Because the mistake of the family, Mom.
She is gone now.