Emotions

When you see me happy, I’m sad in a depressed stage that you will never see me in. When you see me gazing out, I’m in the inside crying my eyes out because you can’t be mine. When I’m calling you, texting you, or even talking to you, I go completely insane because I love you. When I tell you I’m depressed BOY you know it’s about you. I can see you happy in my eyes, but why can’t I see myself happy. When I’m angry, it’s not because of the world it’s because I can’t express myself to you or to anyone else. I sit at my window ceil thinking of you, thinking about the times we had together and the fun we shared, saying to myself, ”why can’t we be together and let us do the things we can do if we were together?” Why can’t I be an unjust person and tell you boy how I feel? I don’t know why all these thoughts are in my brain, but I know that they’re real, something I never felt before. When I swear at people it’s because of my constant pain that I feel because my emotions are too messed up to understand.
-Kala