This is but my final goodbye
My last farewell
Though I hide my feelings
So you can't tell
I faced everyday with a smile
But little did you know
Each morning I painted on a face
Mascara
Eyeliner
Foundation
The whole lot
But each day was more of a waste then the last
A waste of money
A waste of time
I wished so hard that someone would notice me
I was never popular
Just a tag along that no one noticed
No one cared if I wasn't there
Somedays I just wished someone would say hi
While others I wanted to stay unoticed
But whatever my mood i still stood alone
A worthless wreck
Just wanted to hear I was beautiful
Just wished for someone to care
For someone to take my hand
To lead me away from the pain
To lie about everything being OK
Maybe if someone was there it would be OK
But I'll never know
For I was born to be alone
Was born the one with no hopes or dreams
I'm just sick of crying
Black rivers running from my eyes
Mascara tears
I don't think I have the strength to try
So weak
So not alive
And as I lay here writing this
Crimson pours down my wrists
I used to have hope
I used to have dreams
I used to be a normal teen
But now at night I slash my wrists
And cry away my pain
Hoping tomorrow won't be the same
Or maybe I won't awaken
I know there's better ways to ease the pain
Healthier and safer ways to release the hurt
But I know this way to well
I know it works as you can tell
But I'll guess you'll never know how I was feeling
For tonight I say goodbye
I slit my wrists
Overdose
I've finally given up
Are you happy now
Satisfied
I'm gone
Out of your life forever
No longer will I pull you down with me
And with my last breath I think What a waste
What a waste I was
What a waste I am
