Don't Try To Help Me, It's To Late

How could i let it go this far ?
Why couldn't i stop it?
You tried to help me , but i didn't listen
How could i be so stupid?
If i could turn back time i would
But i can't, its to late, i can't go back
I'm dying,
I can't sleep and i can't eat
This is slowly killing me
Only because i was to stupid
Don't blame yourself
And please don't cry
I'm not worth the tears
These are my final breaths
I don't want your sympathy
I threw my life away
And all i can say is you were right
This is it , I'm fading away
I cannot pray for i don't believe
But maybe if i did , thing would be different
God cannot be with me
For he is very far away from here
I don't know what to do
The only thing i can do is sit and await the ending of my time
There's nothing more to say
... just don't do what i did.....
pray for me