I'm sorry

You don't even know it,
But i love you to death,
You don't even see it,
But I'm trying my best.

I never meant to hurt you,
And now all i feel is shame,
I'm trying to make it up,
But I'm losing this game.

Why does God put this brick on my heart,
The pain never ending right from the start.

Why can't i ever just do something right,
Make someone smile or not pissed just one night.

Why am i just a walking burden,
With nothing to live for but loved ones I'm hurtin'

Where are the answers and what can i do?
God, this is me pleading i need help from you...