Love, Secrets, Death and All

For you I have so many questions
Only I’ve lost my chance to ask
I guess one day you just decided
That your invisible sadness needed to be unmasked

Why you chose to end your life
To forever leave this place
Will never be known
Until the day I once again see your face

I remember how I found out,
I could recite word for word that phone call
Your sister, in so many words, told me that you were dead
Said that you had kept secrets from us all

Hurt, upset, and left in pure agony
I couldn’t understand what had occurred
What was wrong? Why had you never told me?
From that moment on, my life was blurred

Unclear of my direction in life,
Unsure of what my dreams were about
I was left knowing I would be without you
For the rest of my life, which filled me with doubt

How do you continue
And do the best you can
When it feels like you’re alone,
Facing life without your number one fan

It’s a different world without you here
I know that it will never be the same
But for you I can also guarantee
That my heart will never forget your name